I was always so wor­ried about pick­ing one of my really hugely var­ied inter­ests to focus on in my life. This has been my major inter­nal con­flict for the last few years. It was too dif­fi­cult and too coun­ter­in­tu­itive to choose between art OR writ­ing because I loved both so much. Not to men­tion the zil­lion of other things I want to do and feel I am.

I felt pres­sure to pick one thing, to choose one path. On top of that what I want to write about (mys­ti­cal phi­los­o­phy) isn’t some­thing peo­ple do for a liv­ing any­more (Hi, I’m Sara and I’m a philosopher??).

These were all out­ward hal­lu­ci­na­tions, obsta­cles in the form of soci­etal pres­sure, the uni­verse pre­sented to me to see if I would actu­ally stick with my pas­sions and do my thang.

The path I’m walk­ing wasn’t some­thing I thought existed. I felt like I should do some­thing that already was well paved like graphic design or paint­ing or become a librar­ian, and though I like all of these things, I always felt stuck or bored just focus­ing on one exclu­sively. I was try­ing to fit a Sara-peg into a soci­ety shaped hole.

Now I see what I am and who I am a lit­tle bet­ter. I don’t need to com­pro­mise– I can do what I want (much thanks to the inter­net, allow­ing non con­formists to reshape the world). I don’t have to pick between vary­ing pas­sions, I don’t have to sac­ri­fice my ideals, my soul to have a con­ven­tional job. My life doesn’t have to be divided into work ver­sus every­thing else. I am my life-my job is my life.

I am Sara Whit­te­more and I AM a philoso­pher.

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