I was always so worried about picking one of my really hugely varied interests to focus on in my life. This has been my major internal conflict for the last few years. It was too difficult and too counterintuitive to choose between art OR writing because I loved both so much. Not to mention the zillion of other things I want to do and feel I am.
I felt pressure to pick one thing, to choose one path. On top of that what I want to write about (mystical philosophy) isn’t something people do for a living anymore (Hi, I’m Sara and I’m a philosopher??).
These were all outward hallucinations, obstacles in the form of societal pressure, the universe presented to me to see if I would actually stick with my passions and do my thang.
The path I’m walking wasn’t something I thought existed. I felt like I should do something that already was well paved like graphic design or painting or become a librarian, and though I like all of these things, I always felt stuck or bored just focusing on one exclusively. I was trying to fit a Sara-peg into a society shaped hole.
Now I see what I am and who I am a little better. I don’t need to compromise– I can do what I want (much thanks to the internet, allowing non conformists to reshape the world). I don’t have to pick between varying passions, I don’t have to sacrifice my ideals, my soul to have a conventional job. My life doesn’t have to be divided into work versus everything else. I am my life-my job is my life.
I am Sara Whittemore and I AM a philosopher.