Let’s talk about time.
I’m nervous about starting my job because it’s new & different & I haven’t built up patterns yet, so I don’t have a pre-existent habit for how to deal with the things that will get thrown at me.
Time is a complicated subject, that I really could spend a great deal of time talking about. For instance, it’s subjective to your personal experience. As we get older we perceive time as speeding up (on a ratio of 1:1 when we’re 25? & 1:1:1 at 80-this is from my memory, it might not be totally accurate, but near enough). We literally experience time as getting faster. & then there’s things like narcotics & intoxicants & cases of trauma that slow down & speed up time,
Seeing is also LITERALLY looking backwards in time, we think we see someone talking & hear someone at the same time, but it isn’t true-it’s just a connection our brains make. & there’s the mind blowing fact we look backwards into space, stars that we see may have already died & we can take pictures of THE BIG BANG. The first known moments of the universe, we can SEE THAT!
Einstein theorized that time & space are the same thing, which may or may not be true. In quantum theory, time is a problem –but you can make the equations work by either taking time or space out– so we don’t really know what time is.
But if time & space, are in fact, as Einstein thought, one big spacetime fabric, then if all of space exists at once, then all of time exists all at once too. This means linear time is non existent. Everything has always happened, is always happening, & has already happened. This could explain intuition, those hunches of what might happen in the future, because the future exists already.
I like this thought (but I also dig a lot of other time theories too) for one it means that every moment is the now (duh), but that you don’t have to worry about something never happening again because it exists simultaneously. It also relieves the anxiety I am feeling towards this change in my life. If it already happened/is happening, then I’ve done it, I’m there already, there’s nothing to worry about. I’m not moving forward in time-I’m just uncovering it.
It also means I’m already done with this job. I’m already working full time on my site. I’m already 60 & doing whatever I’ll be doing at 60 & I’m simultaneously 16 & in highschool & that is kinda shitty, but ultimately that’s ok too, because I’m already dead & born again & continuously born in this life, & I’m already 4 & at Disney World with my parents the summer before kindergarten starts, & I’m already 25 sitting at my computer contemplating time.
So there’s nothing to worry about if time exists all at once. We’re not moving forward or backwards or sideways or whatever. Like explorers, discovering America (& realizing that it existed all along & was in fact, already discovered), we discover the future.
Maybe this isn’t true though. Maybe time doesn’t exist at all, or time only exists in other dimensions & seeps into this one, or only exists in our minds, or time & space are two separate events, but I think the timespace fabric fits nicely with the philosophies of eastern thought.
Alan Watts explains it as looking through a crack in a fence & there’s a cat, but you can’t see the whole cat, just a tiny hole sized, chopped up amount of cat, a fraction. So you see the tail of the cat go by & the body & then the head, & you might think it’s 3 separate really weird looking animals, but it’s really just one cat-split up because of the fence crack. Time is the cat, events happen all at once, but because we’re just limited human beings & our brains can’t process that much information, we neatly split time into a linear line/ a crack in the fence view of time. This further strengthens the Everything Is Connected thought/ since everything is a piece of spacetime
So that’s kinda worth thinking about.